2 instead of 4.

Today it was brought up at church.

" Mal, you have two more years"

That's right two. 

2 until I make my decision.

That one that will make my life so excited and over joyed (which I don't doubt.)

That one that will make my life crazy with chaos. ( which I don't doubt either.)

I've always gotten excited.

"I can get out of here, become who I wanna be."

now I've been come 

terrified.

I'm growing up.

"You're almost there mal"

I'll be 16 in december.

2 1/2.

I'm terrified not only will my mom be a country away.

but my family.

Dad, mom , brother and sister.

So I've decided to embrace 

everything.

friendships.

Family.

People.

"it's like going on a mission."

now I've finally understood what I meant.

but I've also realized
I hate to read ahead in chapters.
but I also have to be ready to embrace those chapters.
Those people.
Maybe I'll meet new best friends.
new family.
new people.

It's all adding up to now.