it happens to everybody.

sometimes i like to laugh.

just laugh.

anywhere really.

today i laughed.

in the middle of young womens.

at not a really good time too.

darn those cute primary kids.

It's Tradition.

I HAVE BRIGHT ORANGE PAINTED FINGERNAILS. 

I'm kinda in love. 

P.S. Those hands aren't mine they just have the same color. 

Je suis malade.

that my friends is french for "I am sick".

I am not only sick. I am super sick.

I feel my throat wants to kill me from all the coughing.

my stomach wants to give me as much pain as possible.

my fever wants to make me miserable and sweaty.

  my head pounds.

all this resulted from friday until today and who knows when it will end.

did I mention i feel asleep at 3:00 A.M.

yes that actually happened.

Welcome to a different country mal.

Where you get sick with something new every 2 weeks.

the only good thing that happened is I got to have
2 cokes. (:

{S.U.M.M.E.R. 2.0.1.2 }

TWENTY MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL THEN IT'S 

S.U.M.M.E.R 

(if you can't tell i'm SUPER excited) (:

{i promise}

i mean really....

growing up and becoming who i am is hard...

Sometimes I have no idea what i'm doing.

sometimes i don't know how to endure this...

but then i hear those little words.....

"you can do it, your halfway there! the first steps are the hardest! just going in your room and pour everything out in prayer not "why me but try me."

honestly sometimes i feel sick to my stomach complaining about stuff i know i shouldn't.

who gets this experience? not many people.

I have never gotten a more powerful testimony.

really i'm so grateful for it.

i know that heavenly father is making me stronger for whats to come.

so instead of complaining about that one boy who have become a burden or

that i get sick more often.

or those tickets.

maybe i just need to move on...

i will be grateful for this day. 

Endure to the End.

I found this talk on the lds.org/youth website. 

https://www.lds.org/youth/article/how-to-endure-to-the-end?lang=eng

Avocado

Today I cut my hair shoulder length... pictures to come. (:

The Help.

Seriously the best book I have ever read.

2 instead of 4.

Today it was brought up at church.

" Mal, you have two more years"

That's right two. 

2 until I make my decision.

That one that will make my life so excited and over joyed (which I don't doubt.)

That one that will make my life crazy with chaos. ( which I don't doubt either.)

I've always gotten excited.

"I can get out of here, become who I wanna be."

now I've been come 

terrified.

I'm growing up.

"You're almost there mal"

I'll be 16 in december.

2 1/2.

I'm terrified not only will my mom be a country away.

but my family.

Dad, mom , brother and sister.

So I've decided to embrace 

everything.

friendships.

Family.

People.

"it's like going on a mission."

now I've finally understood what I meant.

but I've also realized
I hate to read ahead in chapters.
but I also have to be ready to embrace those chapters.
Those people.
Maybe I'll meet new best friends.
new family.
new people.

It's all adding up to now.

   

A hour or two.

I miss that boy.

Tyler Smooth Duke Mcfarland.

Best bud.

I miss that girl

Megan Blume

My proxy sister.

Summer 2011

Trek

Best summer ever.

These girls.

Best friends

"Your going to be one of my bridesmaids at my wedding!"

These Grandma.

I love her oh so much.

"When do you turn 16?"

I miss them all so much.

These 4663 miles thing isn't really working out now is it?