Sorry for the second post after like a minute but this is important.

One thing I need to learn

is to get my emotions

out.

as in

o-u-t

out.

I've kept most of my emotions in.

like one

I haven't really been happy.

I mean yes I've been like happy.

but not happy as in.

"OH MY GOSH I AM SO HAPPY"

like that happy.

yes.

I am not crazy.

just I haven't learn how to let go of the past yet.

this year Christmas and new years just wasn't

I don't know the same.

Last night I cried

a good long need cry.

it was needed very much.

It's been to hard to be strong.

way too hard.

but you know what.

I've learned

I have to be strong.

because being strong is really the only thing

I know how to do.

(crazy right)

I just needed to get that out.

but I promise I'll make sure to be more happy.

and learn how to smile again.

but it might take a little time

so forgive me.